Finally, we got the beds moved around! We have been meaning to get to this project for weeks but something always comes up. I don't know if I should be happy or sad to see Danzer transition into a big boy bed. But, he LOVES his "copter" bedding and is so excited for his new bed. Although we got Ellys' crib together... I can't part with her just yet. She will sleep next to our bed in her bassinet for another month or so. I love having her close to us.
And, as my favorite quote by Tiffini Davis goes.... "Nursing Sucks!" I thought we had it all figured out. But at a month old, Ellys was not gaining ANY weight. She was still a fragile 6lbs and 2oz. I knew something was wrong. I was spending a full hour nursing her about every 3 hours or so and she wasn't getting enough to eat. So we started supplementing her with a bottle and after only 4 days of supplementing her, she gained an entire pound. After a SECOND consultation with the lactation specialist... she suggested pumping in between feedings. OK, so really, nurse for an hour, supplement with a bottle (which takes about 20 min), then pump? For any of you that have a 1 1/2 yr old roaming around and a newborn... you know this is entirely impossible task to do every three hours. So, we gave up. I feel relieved, sad, mad at myself, disappointed, but at peace all at the same time. I can't believe I endured an entire month of nursing with fissures (cracks that are extremely deep and completely busted open). It was THE MOST PAINFUL thing I have EVER endured. Seriously. Worse than contractions. At our first consultations with the lactation specialist the lady gasped when she saw them and said "oh my honey!" I think she was a little taken back at how bad it was. And to top it off... Ellys has thrush now which was passed to me. So, I finally called it quits. I think Hayden is somewhat relieved. He was at his whits end watching be bawl, cringe, cry, gasp, and scream every time I nursed. I am so HAPPY that Ellys is doing better and gaining weight. I feel like a crappy mother for not noticing it sooner... but this isn't going to be the last mistake I make as a mom. So here we go, rip out all the bottles again, and get ready to pay up the yang for formula. But if it makes us all a happy family in the end... it will be worth every penny. Tiffini, thank you for putting the experience of nursing in perfect terms!
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It does suck!!! Don't feel bad. I tried it with my first child. I hated it and I had the same painful situation and so I never did it again with my other four. Your a great mom. Don't worry about it at all!!!
Love the bed rearrangement! Send me the measurements of the spare bedroom (and bed and couch) and we'll see what we can come up with. Those babies....could they be any cuter?!? Give them lots of kisses from Aunt Kris. Can't wait to see 'em. Ahhhhh... Do I sound like Danzer?!! Love your guts! Oh, and, you're a fabulous mom - don't worry about the nursing thing. Hope you feel better soon!
Cute bedrooms Kelly! Looks like you are adjusting to many new changes in your life, and doing it well.
Nursing SUCKS with a capital S. When my baby would latch I would scream SON OF A B*%^$. My mom told me I had to stop saying that or the baby might think it's name was SON OF A B*&^%!
Fissures?!? EEEK! I'm so sorry about the nursing problems! That sounds so miserable. We had to supplement with Madelyn too. Neither she nor Luke were very fun to nurse at first, but I would have done the same thing in your situation. I probably wouldn't have lasted even a month.
But your bedrooms look fabulous! I really love all the wood flooring.
I totally agree - when I started nursing, and then pumping when I went back to work - I totally understood why so much people don't do it. = It is NOT easy!!!
I was determine to do it for as long as I did because it would "help with allergies" and everything else - right?... Years later & Damian have a very rare disease effected by allergies = I am not to sure it worked? ;o(
Way to stick it out for as long as you did girl!!!
Oh man Kel! You had the EXACT same thing going on! I know EXACTLY how you feel right now. I cried when I realized my son had not only NOT gained weight but actually lost a full pound from his birth weight! You feel like a complete idiot for one, for not noticing something was terribly wrong and then you feel like a failure as a parent. Trust me though, when she starts really filling out from the formula and looking and acting like a normal happy baby again you will have succeeded! You are an incredible mommy Kelly! Miss you!
Oh, and of course, you did a fabulous job on your beds, etc. I'm completely jealous of yours and your families creative talents! Love ya!
After working as a lactation counselor all I can say is, it's not for everyone! I loved it, but never had the problems that some women do and you should NOT feel like a bad Mom for doing what you feel is best for you and baby (and the rest of your family too). You're the MOM after all - which means, YOU"RE RIGHT! I love your style, someday when I have a house will you decorate it for me?
Kelly your house, kids, everything is just beautiful!! Its been so long since I talked to you but I am so excited for all your new beginnings.. You look and are so amazing and creative! Miss you lots and it seems like life is grand. Take care and hope you can rest. Love ya
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